^.^

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

This time

This time I won't hv argument anymore...
I just... See things clearer....
Feel that sometimes ppl love each other, but if Live with them, thr is too many conflictsss.... N problem tht can't b solve....
Ppl may see a relationship stable, if for 'love' , it's really stable... Bcz v both trust we heart each other....
But when comes to 'live'.... Argument non stop...
I dun bliv love can't overcome all the conflict in living with ur prtner...
N Vice versa....

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Strengthen

我真的需要一些时间,自己一个人,几本书,一个脑袋,一些节目,来给我自己打个强心针.....

Thursday, August 16, 2012

sad

我很伤心,
不是工作伤心,
是看到工钱的时候伤心........

经过一个车坏,出工钱当天就花了rm600 de 我,
觉得好像钱不够用!
我要钱钱钱!我要换工!!
所以现在就在找~ 也所以我现在是住在jobstreet的蜘蛛 :-/
err,而且发觉找适合自己又薪水合理的工作比找真命天子还难~ :(


然后,
发觉自己越来越爱吃,
好像真的去到那里吃到哪里jiang,
我病发时谁可以来掴我一巴掌?然后骂我死肥婆,你裤子爆了?XD

唉,
很久没吹水了~

和他,
现在是什么阶段?
我懒惰和他谈天,我要多一点私人空间,也给他这些时间去做好他的工作~
虽然我已经有很多私人空间,hahaha

应该update完了...
bye



Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Sayonara

Sayonara to this relationship...
Everything go smooth pls...

Monday, July 2, 2012

Baby come back to me

Pls come bac to me ....T_T
Money money home!!

Friday, June 22, 2012

创造者

我觉得我是一个创造者,
在行创造梦,
不是梦想的梦,
是发梦的梦....+.+
都会把最近发生的小事情连接,变成梦...:/

I wanna b dj...:/

Thursday, June 21, 2012

觉得跟你距离越来越远,
看到你还会突然觉得很陌生,
会想,我到底这一年是怎样跟你熟起来的,然后头脑出现的竟然是一片空白...
很多话和意见我都说出来,因为不要这些小问题滚成一颗大雪球,
结果雪球还是存在,因为说出来不代表已经解决了,
再加上原来我自以为的背后还有一颗雪球从背而来,
整个人好象背这一个很重很重的东西,
可是却说不出一个到底?
我是怎样


Tuesday, June 19, 2012

You x 14

朋友,
不要因为我的不回不找 (msg,comment,watsapp)
胡思乱想ah
我还是记挂你们的:)
纯粹懒惰...
Love all <3

Thursday, June 14, 2012

一时

做么一时觉得自己幸运时就很幸运,一时倒霉就很倒霉?!
连续两次想要什么,晚上就实现...幸运!
特地拿假去做passport,等了整个钟多,要轮到我时就整个system出问题,叫我明天再来过,
小姐,你以为拿假象放屁这么容易咩?
唉...

Sunday, May 13, 2012

almost 2 months

i pregnent i din update my blog almost 2 months,
2day is mother's day,
wish my leng leng mum and take care me since i small geh mi happy mother's day!
stay healthy, and happy :)
i can't split myself into 2 so i have to make choice to go either 1 side :(


i'm going to briefly talk about what's going on on me in this 1 month plus...
and here is it...
wanna jump over the small chair but failed, went to medical center .

when reach arunamari, straight away they take wheel chair for me because i  cant walk. 

wrap and take off few times.
in this 2 weeks, i keep visit medical center den tie da few times... but until now my leg stil pain...spend a lot $     on my leg...so sakit hati the $ not my leg...:(
but luckily i an claim back the $ i spend in medical center bcz i got medical card... it save back few hundred...
here is the cheque , can claim full :) waiting another cheque masuk pocket.
one of my fren say her finger injured the medical bill rm 100 plus and she get rm400...how gud! because she buy medical card with accident 1, wonder if my insurance plan with accident how much i can get? XD but it's ok la, we get wat we paid.

thinking if i stil work as part time promoter i have to stand whole day and i cant work because of my leg, mayb i shud take accident plan. because i cant work and i have no income, i nid the $ from insurance to cover a bit my $...

hah, that's the weakness of part time job altho salary is quite high...

feeling lucky i stil can cope with my work altho i mc few days...and luckily i can drive because is my left leg injured...:) and im ok now...


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2ndly, i have to say R.I.P to my uncle. He is the best uncle we ever have in our chilhood. He is kind hearted among all the uncle. but unfortunately he had kidney failure (i think is because he been a vegetarian almost 20 years and in these years he just ate too much vege food that contains a lot of stabilizer,preservative and because of those food, he lack of protein any other vitamin or watever in meat) and passed away.
who i worried the most is my grandma, she cry and cry all the time in the funeral. >.<
one month passed, even now sometimes we stil can see she is crying, :(

uncle din buy insurance, zero income and use up all his $ for medical, when he stay in hospital and he accidentally heard my mum and aunt talking bout medical fees he say he will return us. he don't want us to bare the fees, we all know he give up his life and passed away is because he dont want us to bare too much and dont want see my grandma so tired everyday to take care on him... so...

peeps, take care ur health, and love the ppl around u because u doesnt know what will happen tomorrow!!



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dreaming ppl around me passed away and cry until wake up...
this feeling is horrible.....
but they say dreaM is opposite with reality... hope so...
did u ever dream of some1 u love passed away ? D:


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arghhhhhhhh, y so many sad things......?
stop it!!

xin hun kuai le to my cousin :)
hope my leg condition is good enuf to attend your wedding dinner:)

when is my turn?
always heard this from relative,
NO! i want enjoy more single life 1st....
take care of children is too early for me nw.

i wanna earn more money,
travel few countries,
have my own car,
have my dream room n toilet, if possible have my dream house XD
get a job i wish to work permanently,
hav a more crazy life,
have more outing,
have a strong social network,
have a memorable proposal from my love 1 after 25 years old may be i will married XD


bye. =)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Days. Us. Love

Simply find this picture so important to me...
3things in this pic is meaningful & impressive...
Hope we can live our life forever like this! <3

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

慢慢变了

开始觉得,自己慢慢变了,
以前整天拿着电话信息的我,
变得懒惰看信息了,一通电话,搞定!

开始觉得,自己慢慢变了,
以前整天埋怨他爱打机,不够时间陪我,
现在却懂得找些事来做,比如上网,听歌,看戏,而不再一直埋怨,
不再像以前一样上网,听歌,看戏却带着不满的心情消磨时间来一边等他。

开始觉得,自己慢慢变了,
以前就算气坏,都觉得不要骂脏话啦,不好听,
现在觉得,想骂就骂,难道一句脏话,你就不再是好个女孩?
不过还是要看看场合~

开始觉得,自己慢慢变了,
不怕闷了,总会找些事来做,
原来静静的,无所事事的,也没什么,只是感觉时间在漫步,
虽然如此,还是怕寂寞,
因为你,我几乎没有寂寞过....
而我所谓的寂寞,是没有人明白你,了解你,
但你没让我这样觉得,很庆幸。

开始觉得,自己慢慢变了,
变得不再细心,越来越不敏感,
一时谁感到怎样,我也没发觉,
也很少再因为敏感而想太多和不开心,也越来越不顾虑,
到底是不是坏事?可是这样我过得比较开心ya
但不细心不代表关不关心,就算有连接,也不是直接性的连接,
纯粹这样认为~

所以,
不细心不代表不关心,
不埋怨不代表不在意,
不怕闷不代表不需要,

以上种种,是习惯还是看开?

不过但答案不重要...

Sunday, March 4, 2012

123

here again,
ytd heard a spooky story,
happened on a ppl around me,
no wonder i found him very weird,
talk weirdly n act weirdly,
and the true story bout water ghost make me can't drive properly,
my mind keep thinkin bout it, and cant focus :(
and u, i noe your eye can see what more than us..
i was kinda suprise when u say somethg bout my car... O.O


suddenly plan to further study,
but of course not study in college or wat,
juz plannin to take cert o program...
since i saw many company hiring hr officer who noe payroll and have at least 1 year experience.. :D
wat i need juz nid to learn labour law somethg lik that,and continue work wat i workin nw...
to get better paid....
3k 3k~ :X


hope the trip can success...
bcz this is the 1st time u ask me for trip~
and struggling now to keep better body shape lolz....
juz for d trip & d dinner
beachhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :)

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Classes

Nowadays I keep having topic of different classes... Seems lik inspiring me to learn something new... :)
-Belly dance-
recommended by Vian, she asking any1 of us want to join? Im ok wif it... Im thinkin of belly dance can let me slim down, not bad... But not enuf ppl so nt able to join tht class...
-singing class-
When being invited to sing k on march, I was thinking wth? I plan to join singing class but din "implement" it.. Hmm... I was asking bout d fees last time, 200++... lolz... thats too expensive for me... N i can just practice in toilet ba?! So... Out! :(
- guitar class -
Wanna learn it since form4... But cannot afford... When cum to college, stil can't afford... So I missed the chance... Nw ar... Dun1 ady lu... I'm gonna learn something that can slim down... I wil put ' exercise' class as my priority.... So that I wun keep imagine the fat is sedang accumulate at my stomach after lunch & dinner...xD
-piano class-
Juz write for fun where I saw the ads about piano class at somewhr ytd...:DD

Boring lik a dead blog....?
I heard a very interesting class today!
It's ' breathing clAss' ....
hah... The class is teaching us the thing v doing every second , lolz!
No la... Actuali the class is teaching us breathe in the right way...
How to say breathing in a right way? I also duno... U shud go for the clAss...or google it...xD
The class is around Bayu or bkt tinggi lah...

That's all...for today...:)
Speech ended... Lolz

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

v-day

hmm...
celebrate it earlier...
went to 1u oni for macaroon( finally i have it) very special taste , but too sweet >.<
but too sad when i was trying to snap the best pic of it, the lighting kacau kacau, at last the pic is nt nice, ish! so im not plan to upload it...
here is the pic i get from internet, looks more delicious? XD



lets have more idea bout it....



before this day v went to icity,
after that plan to eat a very nice western food at the cafe near ims building at almost bukit raja thr,
but i used to guide the wrong way, so we went to centro, but after read d menu, we dun feel like order....;/
den change to espress, btw, the food is nice...
after late dinner we watch the wedding diary at mbo,
quite nice lahhh :)


when the right day,
saw lotsa ppl, like wat yeang say "sai meng" post the picture of flower n chocolate dey received,
i hav some hard feeling...
y i din get at least 1 of dem....:(
den emo, den argue as usual ( like last year!)
den as usual again, we r fine now :)

on9 on that day,
saw yeang n chat wif her,
den hav a spontaneous - 30 min - outing wif her....XD
hah, finally i have date on v-day...:D
but time is too little for us to chat ,
hope hav a spontaneous outing nex time ! :)

Sunday, January 29, 2012

How to love ?

Accidentally saw this article that give me some thought....
Share it... :)
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怎么去爱一个男人、请仔细看下去! ♡

年轻时,我们不懂爱。我们以为不许他抽烟,是为了不让他得肺癌;不许他喝酒,是为了保护他的肝;不许他看通宵,不许他上网,是为了保证他的睡眠;不许他和朋友打牌、上馆子,是为了不让他荒废事业,一事无成-
爱他,我们就要给他一定的空间。我们不能因为爱,就剥夺了他的爱好和自由。男人抽烟喝酒,就像女人逛街穿衣一样,那是一种由衷的快乐。没有了它,男 人就少 了太多的快乐。所以,如果不是嗜烟酗酒,如果不至于影响健康,那么,抽烟的时候帮他点火,喝酒的时候陪他来两杯吧!也许你会发现,他的快乐其实 就是你的快 乐-
男人喜欢什么,陪他就好了,窝在他的怀里,看他笑,看他狂,看他丧气,你只要陪着他就好,不要抱怨,也许当时他把你忘了,以至于你睡着了,他都不知道, 但 是,当他忙完时,他一定会温柔地抱起你。男人爱上网,你就让他上吧,有些时候,男人可以在网中找到成就感,找到英雄感,人总要有点精神寄托的。男人 当然更 是少不了朋友的,只要他不是夜夜笙萧,偶尔和朋友聚聚,你该为他高兴。一个有朋友的人,他才不会孤独,不会偏执。不要嫉妒他的朋友,不要说你没有他的朋 友 重要,一个人的一生中,除了爱情,亲情,他还需要友情的-
拥有时,我们不懂爱,易把亲近当疏远 。 我们会发现,我们爱的那个男人对谁都好。他在车上可以和陌生人亲切的交谈;他看见有老人会热心地让座;他在路上跟每一个熟悉的人打招呼;在外面他似 乎事事 周全,可是,唯有对我们,他是那样的容易忽略。他会忘了你的生日,他会忘了陪你逛街,甚至放假后,他倒头就睡,他竟然都不陪你说话。你很疑惑,为什么, 为 什么这个男人他对谁都好,唯独对我毫不重视?他陪朋友可以聊到深夜,为什么面对我竟无话可说,为什么让他陪我看电视,他就说累了要睡觉?亲爱的,千万不 要 这样想,他对谁都好,对谁都周全,那是因为他和他们有距离。男人是很虚荣的,他要面子,他也要应酬。而你,你是他的爱人,在他眼里,你就是自己人,他无 须 在你面前活得那样累。所以,你要明白一点,男人对你忽略,其实,正是把你当作自己一样的看待。所以,不要抱怨他忽略你,记住,只要他能在和别人亲切交谈 的 时候紧握着你的手,在晚上睡觉的时候紧抱着你的身躯,那么,你就无须自己折磨自己。你要相信,他爱你就像爱自己-
拥有时,我们不懂爱,易把 任性当撒娇。爱一个人就有权利霸道地说:“不要穿那件衣服,难看死了。穿这件,这是我新给你买的。”张晓风在《一个女人的 爱情观》里如是说。其实,很多女 人在她们的男人面前都是这样霸道任性的。我们以为爱他,就有权利要他这样,不要他那样。我们以为爱他,就可以翻看他的 口袋,看他的聊天记录,检查他的邮 箱。我们以为爱他,当然就可以在他面前毫无隐瞒的发泄我们的情绪-
我们可以霸道,可以任性,只要我们的霸道能让他体会到我们的依赖,只要我们的任性能够让他开心,那么所有的情绪都是可爱的撒娇:在寂静的夜里,你蹭 在他的 怀里,不肯去睡是撒娇;走累的时候,你说走不动了要他背你,是撒娇;在他生气的时候,你摇摇他的胳膊,亲亲他的脸蛋是撒娇。总之,撒娇是爱情的调味品, 是 亲昵爱恋的自然流露,撒娇绝不是吵架的导火线。当我们的撒娇变成了一种执拗,当我们的任性变得不讲道理,当我们的爱恋变成了不信任。亲爱的,爱情将和我 们 渐行渐远-
拥有时,我们不懂爱,易把怀疑当调侃-
我们爱他,真的,这种爱甚至可以深入骨髓。我们以为世界上只有这个男人最好,我们以为我们爱的男人,别的女人也一定喜欢。于是,我们把他含在口里怕化了,捧在手里怕碎了。我们不知道该怎样珍惜才好,我们变得患得患失,神经紧张-
因为爱他,所以,我们害怕失去。我们惟恐一不小心,他就被哪个女人给拐跑了。于是,我们开始失去自我,我们开始敏感多疑-
爱他,我们就要相信他。只有你相信他,你才能更加幸福。因为你感觉到了幸福,你才会更爱他,而他也将更加爱你。而怀疑一旦植入你的心中,你的爱便在 一点点 消失。因为,你总把他往坏里想,自然,心理暗示着自己一天天远离他。你在痛苦中煎熬,你伤害着自己,也伤害着爱人。爱不是占有,爱是宽容 宽厚 是通达 是理解-

Friday, January 27, 2012

support

support,
y let me hear it??
izit bcz god feel that this muz let me noe den create a chance to let me noe?
bcz of the person dey support,
but wat he do shit,
nex year dun ask me help,
nt feel happy after help,
i rather dun1 help u,
i wil feel better,
at least nobody uphappy,
juz wanna tel u,
hw u treat my "dem"
i will double treat bac on u...
hw u count lik this,i wil double count bac,
i dun care ur consequence,
bcz u nvr think of their side too,
its totally nt fair,
dey nt deserve that, dey deserve more than that (a lot!),
gettin upset when writting this,
my dear guest pls dun ask me wat is this abt,
juz wanna express without save as draft, lolz


im not taking package,
all unhappy thing dunid to cum together,
1 is enuf!!
it's a accident,
nobody want this incident happen,
i noe u angry but i cant do anything,
make me more pek cek & moody!
stop here, bye

Thursday, January 26, 2012

seriously

i juz dun like smoke! i dun like ppl smoke in front of me,
it wil drive me crazy, i dun like that gang!!!!
i dun like that life,
i dun1 it slowly bcum a part of my life!
i like the life n klang n i slowly improve it like now, nt tht sht.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

21st birthday

Gonna share something that happen once in my life, my 21st bday...
I'm juz having a very simple birthday, no celebration no party... 13th nite, he came to Klang n v go for a muvi den supper... I was busying reply msg when muvi...XD
14th...
I passed it with shopping at sunway pyramid, bought some new year clothes n shoe with him...
Althou something unhappy happened b4 v reach sp, but at least v end it with lots of stuff n better mood...
After tht went to cafe... Havin supper, It's already 11pm, eat cheese cake thr, so delicious~ den play cho dai dee... I lose from start to end, (last round I won) :) haven great time thr...
15th, spend whole dat with him again... Act I spend 48 hr wif him except when bath n sleep..
Den Yc with ssg, oh I get present, n 2small cake, tq:)
I love spend time wif dem...;)

Here is some photo tht help me to talk tq dem

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2012

Hi I'm here again,
Ntg much to share,
Life stil remain d same, work n work n enjoy holiday,
But I'm glad tht last month hv quite a lot of holidays, that makes my working life better...a bit...
Working ar, time pass so fast, feel lik nt enuf time to complete my assg, but it just fine, except the stupid PATI thing, yuck! I hate doin passport n permit thing! Blueh :(
Oh ya, abt my xmas 11, I gt a bit regret, I shud go icity on tht day, mayb more activities? But b4 tht havin dinner at 88 steamboat with part of ssg,
Wat impress me the most is d green tea ice cream, owh~ sedap!! Btw d food nt tht bad...
Den went to morib, d look was improve, n I take a video of... Uhm I Duno wat tht thing call...but I just upload it when usin pc, kinda wu Liao de video ~

For new year, went to genting wif him n some of his frenz,
Wat most za dao is~ v just see d mist, can't see d firework! Lolz=.=
btw, d weather is so cold thr, kinda lik it, but cold x100000 tht I cannot tahan, n I din bring sweater n i summore wear short skirt, stay cool B-)
After c d mist, n hear ppl shout for Ntg, we went to casino,
Thts my 1st time~
but d guard didnt check my ic,
Shud I happy? Hahaha T_T
Lepak at casino, I din gamble since Im so kia su, but I nervous for dem...
Guess wat time I reach sbn?
630 am... Hahaha... Cool~
I fall asleep in car, sleep quite well but pity to mr leong, he stuck in jam summore close his eye for few second while drivin, dangerous leh... Pls dun do tht again...
D nex day sleep until almost 4pm, wow, long time no such life ady, appreciate it~

Holiday ended...:(
Waitin new year.... Hohoho, I start workin on 5th of cny...
Sad, gonna make it longer, bye bye

Red Lollipop